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my mood is swinging is swinging

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I feel compelled to blog today, especially after such a sad crappy post from yesterday.

So today has been a rather nice day, except I’m a little ill AGAIN.

Damn, being ill SUCKS. Okay let’s not be negative today.

So we went to the temple to visit my deceased grandpa like we do every year. It’s like a small family gathering where my paternal relatives gather and catch up. I didn’t really take part in the conversations, but I really enjoyed listening to their stories from work and all that. I guess some (or most!) of my dramatic genes comes from my father and his sisters. Hehehehe it’s just so interesting and funny to watch and listen to them talk.

I found out Pinterest finally did some changes to their terms, so I went back to repinning and boy, oh boy I looooove that site. Found so much teaching tips and ideas I almost wept. I found a new author that I really love too! Marianne Richmond is her name, and I adore her illustrations. Love the topics that she touches on in her children’s books – of love, self-respect and all those things that make my heart flutter as I imagine myself sharing them to children. My future children, and those that I’m going to teach. I’m so inspired all of a sudden, you know? There’s so many possibilities and I’m actually excited to graduate and be a full-fledged teacher. 

Gosh I miss the kiddos in Genius Hive. Especially the infants, since I spent some time there helping out. I didn’t really help out in the child care section, but I really look forward to knowing each and every child there! I can’t wait to finish my main workload and help out in the classrooms. See, I’m getting more and more attached to this place.Is this what I want? I don’t know, since it’s only a temporary job. Is this something that make me happy? HELL YEAH. All the time.

I wonder if it’s a good thing to get so easily attached to something/ some place/ someone?

HMMS, only time will tell I guess.Let’s revisit this topic again soon.

Alrighto burrito, so these are some things that are going through my mind now. I need to sleep already, the flu meds are kicking in quickly and I’m losing consciousness as I type. Hahaha!

Great blogging session, GekTeng! Yay! I shall blog more often. Yes. I really should. But what if the things I blog are more or less the same? Ok whatever. I shall blog whatever.

good ni..zzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


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March 25, 2012 at 9:01 PM

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What I’ve been doing

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Hello, blog! It’s been such a long time, I know. I’ve been soooo busy since school started and blogging isn’t really one of my priorities then. But I’m back! So much has happened in these months I reckon I need to start blogging before forgetting.

Well before I transport myself back to the past, HAPPY 2012! I’m not actually proud of myself for not achieving my resolution for donating blood in 2011. I NEED MORE COURAGE. And less selfish. HMPH. More about resolutions later.

I’ve been thinking of doing a catch-up blog post; of interesting things I have been doing and everything worth mentioning that this blog had missed out on. Being away for so long and coming back now, I suddenly feel I’m at this phase where this blog appearance no longer suits.


Haha, time flies, it’s been one year since I’ve moved from Blogger and made here the home of my thoughts, feelings, rantings and what-nots.

Okay back to catching up. There are endless things I want to/can talk about the trip to Perth. No amount of pictures and words can express how much fun I had there and how I missed going back to that place again. I left a part of me there, Perth, and I’m gonna come back again.

My laptop and external hard disk was infected with a virus and it’s been a hell of a few weeks. Only yesterday I had decided to sort out pictures that are carelessly strewn all over the place within my hard disk in my fervor attempt to save every bits and pieces of memories over the last few years. It’s an awesome feeling to look at videos and pictures that are years before and reminisce – something that I can’t afford to do/didn’t think about doing during my free time. So here I am again.

School started in mid-october, being one of the major reasons for my hiatus here. It’s been tough – school, I mean. But I’m glad I survived half of this semester already. 6 more weeks of lectures, tutorials, assignments and group projects and I’ll sit for my 2 paper and free I will be. I wonder what I’ll be doing for the 2 months of vacations.

Positive things about school, well I reunited with my homies Mawar and Yana, and I’ve also grown more and more attached to the attachment centre and the children. Sadly, no pictures are allowed to be posted. AWWWWWWWW too bad!

9 OCT 2011
We went to the Asian Civilisation Musuem to look at the exhibition on the Terracota Warriors. Did I ever mention just how much I enjoy museums?!

Skip to the month of November, we had the ECH Celebration Fiesta! It’s been such a long time since I’ve immersed myself in school activities and such! We had a game booth that day too and Ms Mona bought wacky wigs for us too!

Oh and we went to Singapore Discovery Centre as part of our assignment thing thing which I forgot. But I did remember the silly dance moves and crazy things we did there!

And then in my religious community we organised a chalet. The night before the teens gathered with some seniors and had steamboat for dinner, played poker and plasticine and stacked apples. Next late morning, we biked a whole 32km from changi all the way to East Coast Park and back. SHIIIIOK! Fun times all around!

Then it’s the New Year’s Eve karaoke cum sleepover with my lovely ladies! Not forgetting the sparkling juice, early-morning mahjong session and before-sleep facial masks session we had!

k bye!

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January 14, 2012 at 1:29 AM

Almost 20.

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Yep, today is my 19th birthday OH YEAAAAAAAAAAH!

Well actually we don’t really celebrate birthdays. As in, we give ang paos, sometimes presents, but birthday celebrations aren’t really a hoo haa in my family (like any other events…)

For me too, it’s just like any other day,I guess. When I was young, I was very pentang. Something bad will happen on my birthday, especially when I have birthday celebrations. One year I got caught in between the MRT entrance thingy where the barriers open and closed when you tap your card. And it closed on me. YEEEEAH. Another year my fingers got stuck in between the door of the elevator and I couldn’t pull it out. I remembered trying hard to pull it out but I couldn’t, but I forgot how I got them out. And this can also explain my paranoid-ness regarding lifts and pressing the button before entering and leaving. But I remembered clearly that I hurt my knees when I was 10 while playing captain’s ball during P.E. I remember it was a Thursday.

Mom asked sister to buy a cake home when I came home early today. Was kinda supposed to be celebrating with my ladies tonight but they were kinda busy so we decided to meet next Friday instead. Also, one kid in my attachment centre shared the same birthday as me! Well not the same year of course, their parents bought cake and treated the class and teachers. Me and Hafiza was there on time to grab a piece each too, and it tasted SOOOOOOO GOOD! nyumnyumynum!

Love my friends back in Poly too. They make me smile and smile and smile so much today. The 2 musketeers really surprised me with the whole open-the-book-and-a-card-falls-out-surprise. It was totally not expected and so funny as usual! Yu Zhen was sitting in front of me during tutorial and slowly turned to me and whispered happy birthday, and Sihui came right up to my ear to whisper the same thing as well. Small, simple surprises all day long. LOOOOVE IT! HAHAHA!

Much thanks to my dear BONGER aka Hafiza, she told the 2 other musketeers to send a text to me on the 19th hour on my 19th birthday. And I just went on separate ways with her to go home right after she sent that long ass text to me. SURPRISESURPRISE~~~

Soooooooo my birthday was a peaceful, simple and surprise-filled blast. I feel so blessed. I AM blessed. Thank you everyone for being a part in my life, now I’m gonna go cut the cake my sister bought! (It’s like the first time I remember cutting a birthday cake with my family other than a distant memory I had on my 7th birthday!)

Aal iz well.

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January 13, 2012 at 10:11 PM

the thing with travelling and vacations

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It’s so frustrating. I just want to make a random out-of-the-spur decision to book the latest flight to somewhere. ANYWHERE. And just roam about. With my camera. Enough food. And of course MONEY.

I’ve been wanting to holiday for a really long time now, and please, not tours. I hate tours, to be very honest. I want to explore based on what I am interested in, and without any plans, routines, datelines and irritating morning calls to stress about when I’m vacationing. I want to shop when I want to, and stop whenever I want to. I don’t want a damn timetable to follow. Imagine if you’re given 1 hour to shop vivo city? INSANE.

I want to just see and feel the real life of living in the environment with natives, and not to go to tourist spots and attractions. That’s all so fake. I wanna see the real thing. How people live. What do they do after work. Do shops close at 5PM everyday or 24/7? Where do locals go frequently? What do they do? Do they hang their clothes outside in bamboo sticks?

I want to just go somewhere, take a public transport, listen to what people talk about, alight at some random stops, see a random diner and get food, see a random decent looking hotel/motel and stay a night. Then go out to explore again. I want a free, no boundaries, no expectations or limits, I WANT THE REAL THING.

Going/planning with aunts. Conservative aunts who ALWAYS go on tour and throw their money to agencies to have them settle everything. NOT GOOD. I don’t feel very encouraged, or even excited to go out anymore. They keep saying, “You think it’s that easy?” Oh, come on, try and I’ll know! I want a life with risks, and opportunities. To get lost. And find my way again. and get lost again. And maybe find some friends and get to know new people.

Am I really sounding over-confident about this whole go-with-the-flow approach to travelling?

I don’t know, maybe I will one day, when I pick up enough guts to leave and also enough money to spend and support my travelling plans. But it’s really frustrating that they are holding me back and belittling my plans? I mean, hello, people are doing this everywhere, get on a plane to anywhere in the world and just EXPLORE FREELY.

The world has so much to offer. I have so much to learn and know. I want to experience and see things from different perspectives and appreciate what the world has to offer. And most importantly, I’m so young, I wanna do all these when I still have the energy and ability to do so.

And I feel so held back by my family’s need to protect and reluctance to a laidback kind of trip where you just go last minute.

But then again.

Oh well.

I just wanna travel the world. Freely. Go wherever I want, Wherever anything takes me to.

I don’t know, but it’s not a good feeling when you know you can do and experience much more, but you’re just tied to something that refuses to let go.

You understand?

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August 21, 2011 at 1:00 AM

Weekly Photo Challenge: Old

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Old… and young – in both spirits and heart. (Okay, sometimes not the mentality, but I can live with that;D)

Grandpa’s facial contours and his beautifully imperfect facial hairs never fail to unfaze me in many ways. At age 75 he’s still managing the household so adequately, never fail to replenish food supplies and go around the vicinity for the best buys, saving the cents and dollars to support the whole family ever since Mom was young. A skilled carpenter, I remember. He collects potential furnitures and stuffs that are thrown away by people, and reuses them, or make them into cabinets and racks. I remembered him making a whiteboard stand for me when I was young, and even painting them in vibrant colours. Even when he was still in his sixties, he repaints the whole house every lunar new year.

Been living with my grandparents for the most of my nearly 2 months worth of vacation, and I really loved it there. The love they give is different in every single way and there’s always something to laugh about and tease of.

Thank god for grandparents. Although they were the reason I don’t want to work and earn the ‘potential’ extra pocket money during the vacations, what I get in return is priceless.

Living in the moment, that’s what I call it.

Although I bet I’ll spend ALOT of time missing the days and the people here when I go back home… and school.

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April 14, 2011 at 6:27 PM

Oh, you don’t know.

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I read this post in Tumblr of how children responded to the question, “What is Love?”

Funny, and the honest and simplest truth.

I just want to remember this, let me share:

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth. Billy – age 4

“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologneand they go out and smell each other.” Karl – age 5

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” Chrissy – age 6

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.”Terri – age 4

“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” Danny – age 7

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss” Emily – age 8

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby – age 7

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” Nikka – age 6

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” Noelle – age 7

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still> friends even after they know each other so well.” Tommy – age 6

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.”Cindy – age 8

“My mommy loves me more than anybody.You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.”Clare – age 6

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.”Elaine-age 5

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt.”Chris – age 7

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.”Mary Ann – age 4

“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” Lauren – age 4 (HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!)

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint hertoenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.”Rebecca- age 8

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” (what an image)Karen – age 7

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica – age 8

So there you have it. Savour them. Like I did.

This shows us how important good parenting is. Parents influence children and they learn by observing how parents behave and do things.


I got all these quotes from:

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April 8, 2011 at 1:39 PM

>Let’s waste time, downloading stuffs.

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>Technically it’s not wasting time, but times like these… home alone during the holidays… are meant to be boring and meaningless and everything I don’t want it to be. But sometimes MEEEEE time is unusually peaceful and serene too! Depends on your perspective la, sometimes it makes me go bonkers. Especially when I’m PMS-ing.

But these days, I don’t know whether it’s because of my happy hormones or just plainly because things are just going smoothly for me or whatever, I’m enjoying my holidays just as much! Went out during the past2 days, and boy, I did lots of shopping YIPPEEEEE!

Not for clothes, actually, but more on books…records… and all that stuff.

Don’t really wanna elaborate too much, I’m still transferring videos into my iphone, which is taking a hell out of my time. Gotta figure out a pattern to work out those things! Oh yeah, the best thing about yesterday was that both Mom and Dad took leave and we spent out ‘mini sunday’ back to NP to get all my free programmes back on my Fujitsu! And not that I’m over-paranoid or whatever – which I really don’t think I am – but just now the HD stopped responding and I had to force shut it down. Argh. I swear I’ll save up and get a Macbook pro before I graduate from NP. And that MS Office software that costs less than 20 bucks! I’m really beginning to see the perks of being a local student. In Singapore context, I mean. I wonder if foreign schools actually have this kind of benefits for students? But the softwares are really a good buy. Will remember to get it before I graduate I SWEAR!

Okay then we went around shopping and eating and eating and shopping. I bought Goodbye Lullabye! WOOHOO! I mean my mom bought it for me. DOUBLE WOOHOOO!!! I feel I’m getting so stingy about my finances and all that nowadays. HMMS.

Okay Wednesday was just a trip to town to get some pop up books I adore. Like the Little Prince Deluxe pop up edition. YEAH, THAT. And many others. Well not much, if not I’ll be broke by now. Heh!

Oh! I met up with the BITCHES for dinner on Monday too! It’s so funny, Jerica and Shuhui came by to watch some movies before meeting for dinner. Insider story, but I’ll remember this forever. Maybe even confess to my mother about what happened when I’m older. And legal. I mean 21. But it’s so much fun!

Other days are spent at home or at ahma’s. So nice, I kind of like to play with Jovianne. She’s so cute and all that, but meltdowns, it’s a nono for me. Hahaha, see, that’s some advantages of not being a mother to a kid. You can simply avoid the meltdowns and get away ASAP, not being responsible for anything. And oh my, I do sound very irresponsible! Especially when I’m with people who are more responsible for thinggs compared to me. Ah, I’m sidetracking and babbling.


Channel U is showing this awesome show about private investigaters and solving cases and all that. Kind of like a sitcom, where there’s funny things that happened every now and then. And so, after solving a case – currently only 2 – this madam will type a report and conclude about the mission. I’ve been keeping a mental track of those quotes from her since day 1:

Temptation is like poison coated with sugar. Once the sugar melts after tasting it, it’s just too late to escape from the poison.

Behind every photograph, there are stories only the photographer knows themselves.

Something like that.

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March 18, 2011 at 1:47 PM

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